Fight Me: Part Whatever

It’s raining all week — which is something I’m quite fond of. Ever since I was a kid, the sounds of water drops and the chill that a rainy day brings has always caught my full attention. Sleeping when you’re able to hear the rain is just the best. I fucking love it.

Now if I can be less optimistic, here’s how everything is going very wrong this week. The economy is officially in a full blown recession and stocks are in a bear market. I’m down more than 20%, which sounds comical after you finally have the courage to see how much value you’ve lost in the past week. I’m fucked, but I kind of expected this to happen. I’m lucky I liquidated 1/3rd of my portfolio a month earlier, but it still stings a lot.

You know what’s the worst part about me? I’m fairly clumsy when I’m completely distracted. My attention was shifted away just for a second and enough to make me slip in the rain. My phone flew out of my hand and handed on the concrete. It was destroyed. I could be mad, but that honestly wouldn’t do me shit. It’s a phone that’s just become a very useless paper weight. I could order the part to fix the damage, but time needed to learn how to fix it and waiting on the part to arrive isn’t going to be quick or easy. Most repair places only fix iPhones. So fuck it then. I drove my ass over to the Apple store and picked up a new iPhone.

Seriously. Please don’t fight gravity until I get a case for it. I think this is one of those times where I tell myself it’s just a phone and that shit can be replaced. After all, it doesn’t have any sentimental value so just move on and don’t let that accident keep you down.

Can it just be Friday already? Later world.


The Aftermath

It’s the second day after my horrific accident. I honestly cannot remember what happened that night or the day after that well. Amnesia is scary and only gets worse the harder you think out all the events into place.

For whatever dumbass reason, I forgot to bring my phone with me that night. I guess I thought a quick trip to the store would be no big deal, right? I always avoid the busier streets anyway and opted for the smaller hidden ones. This however, would cause the accident that completely left me knocked out unconscious. I don’t remember the impact, only waking up to police asking if I was okay. I very much wasn’t. My car hit a deep pothole and had me colliding with the tree, sidewalk and a parked car. The air bag deployed which helped to keep my face relatively injury-free. I do have a bruise on my forehead to the right of me and my chin feels like it’s about to crumble, but I walked away from this — almost unscathed. My hips hurt but I don’t think anything is misaligned.

Who called 911 if I didn’t have my phone on me? My car did. It sensed the collision and rang up emergency services without my intervention. Technology came to my rescue and my God I’m thankful to be alive. I’d probably never buy a different brand car ever again. My life was spared. I’m taking tomorrow off just to keep my mind from getting too stressed.

Is it weird that is what it takes for me to have a few days off? Yeah, I’ll admit it’s highly unique and circumstantial. I needed this and tomorrow is a other beautiful day ready for the taking. I already have another car planned for purchase. I hit rock bottom — in the literal wheel hitting gravel sense, but things are already looking up. To tomorrow and many more to come.

Later world. I’m alive.


It Was Nice While It Lasted

What do you get when you have shitty roads and car with low profile tires: a totalled vehicle. The car I bought less than 2 months ago crashed violently into the curb, a tree and a parked car in front.

Fuck me right? It’s gonna be a total loss and now I have to go about buying another. Good grief. Can everything stop fucking with me ready?

I had a mild concussion and am still recovering. That’s what happens when your head smashed into a steering wheel. I’m uncharacteristically stuttering a lot with each sentence but I’ll have a doctor check me up for anything serious. Fuck this shit.

Later world.