Travel Plans: Arcata

I’m planning a trip later this year to Arcata. Do I know anything about Arcata and the surrounding areas? Not even a little bit, but one of my friends I hold quite dear to lives around there. If I drove, it would take all day and considerable amount of gas. My car only takes premium, so it’s cost prohibitive. I’m not too fond of the idea sitting alone in my car for extended periods of time, so flying is the go-to way. I found out if I sign up for a new credit card, the cost of the ticket is just $75. Fuck. Yes.

I think it’s been about 3 years since I’ve last seen her. I returned to Santa Barbara at the time to see some friends while also part-taking in the usual array of booze and partying that accompanies the night. Shit was fun and my god, did I not have a care in the world at that time.

I find it amazing some of the people I befriended in sort periods of time are some of the more meaningful ones. I’m glad we find some means of keeping in touch with everyone’s lives running separately. It’s the drawbacks of moving on to the next chapter — lives diverge. People you once saw frequently disappear and are a rare occurrence. To live to get older, but miss the times you once had.

A lot has happened in the time I’ve seen her. I let her know I’ve changed a lot. Gone are the days of daily around the clock binge drinking and drunken walks along the beach. Do I miss it? Kinda. I miss not worrying about anything. Life comes at you fast and I’m just glad I can easily start a conversation with someone I miss.

One plane ticket coming right up. Later world.


Visions of Fortune in Thin Air

Is really June already? It’s crazy and terrifying how fast time flies. It felt like just yesterday when it was January and I was wondering if my New Years resolutions would be doable. Turns out — I’m three for three and then some. I’m not saying just because you plan for something it always has to turn out the way you want, but with enough determination and effort, anything is possible. Plans do change after all.

One of my friends told me the other day the few minor inconveniences I nag and complain about are vastly different than some of the issues other people experience. Does it mean I’m too focused on the minute and not at the bigger picture? My stocks are now in the red for the first time all year and my mirror broke off my car — seriously. This is all that’s bugging me all week. Fuck it. Right? Little annoyances are just that — temporary.

One of my friends — who is female, has been giving some weird vibes lately. I consider her one of those people who don’t particularly have strong listening abilities. It doesn’t matter if I text it bluntly or say it over the phone — she won’t leave me alone. Seriously — stop bugging me about stupid shit. It’s not to say I won’t lend an ear or hear her out. I’m annoyed she doesn’t get the message. Give me a break already. I would chalk this up with age being the main reason we don’t see eye to eye. She’s a nice person, but no — you and I will never be. As some say, she’s not my cup of tea.

Looking at my family, I finally met my sis’ new (boy) friend the other day. I would say it’s still too soon and early, but she’s happy, laughing, and cheerful so I’ll reserve judgment from some other time. Let time take its course and come to an opinion later on.

It’s been over two months since my dad had a job and he, from what I can tell, isn’t really trying to be employed. He embodies everything I dislike about being a man and the head of the household. If his constant negativity about the world and blatant laziness in taking control of his life wasn’t obvious when I was much younger, now it has. I’ll never understand someone like him because he is the anti-me — if that even makes sense. Weird thing is, I don’t recall a single time when I was kid where I looked up to him as a mentor or idol. You might be thinking “how sad” but it wouldn’t have done me any good.

One of my co-workers said I need to fend for myself since it’s my life and I deserve to have everything I want and aspire to be. My god I will. As I titled this, visions of fortune don’t come out of thin air.

Later world.